Blood was my wake up a few years ago. Disfellowshipping finally got my wife out in the last year.
Its different for everyone. I am like you in that i seemed to be around the "good" JW's. Even handed guys, that i could talk real with, and that were loyal but also seemed reasonable. But they are the minority. the super minority. All it took was one run in with some Pharisaical elder JW, and for the branch to stand by this guy to no end, for me to say...oh yeah.....I was around some unique people but that doesn't represent what is ACTUALLY taught.
Your wife is your priority. I think the sex abuse cover ups and blood "stumbling" you are a good way to go with your wife. Like Giordano said, let her get used to it. Then start fading. You really need to think about her, how you can communicate with her, and eventually she will have her own journey. Don't have kids until it is settled....and then.....have some. They are great! They give you a totally different sense of purpose. they connect you to the past and future. they are your immortality. Not some fairy land.
I am agnostic and leaning atheist. i find the thought of death hard to bear. But I'm working on it.